Tuesday, June 9, 2009

baby steps ...


when i first began this blog, it was intended to share stories and pictures of a day in the life of ella ... but as time passes, i am finding that it has become my diary as well. a chance to share a few of my random thoughts ... and my life as it is with ella. i have serious anxiety ... most that know me know this ... but lately it's taken on a whole new meaning. my job is super demanding ... and i am on the verge of a life changing move with ella. our first baby steps into the reality of making it on our own. the move. as i am up at 4am typing this i just keep saying something over and over to myself. "serenity now, serenity now, serenity now." what is funny is that ella's dad used to say that jokingly ... and it has stuck in my head through the years ... and i actually use it when i'm on the edge.

thank you tiffany, for your own blog and stories ... and for being my life long friend. thank you chrissy ... for being so good to ella ... and lending your heart and ear and sharing your amazing family. i just had to give a shout out to you both!

i will end with this ... church. it is almost a joke that i attempt going because ella only makes it though the singing, but i do have to say, worth it. 5 minutes of beautiful music that seeps into your heart and tugs is therapy from God.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

sweet, sweet baby

ella is two ... and all that comes with it. the sweet ... the rotten ... and the wonderful.