today ... i woke up early to ponder decisions in the making. buy or rent? i am looking at a house on saturday ... very near my parents ... and cherrington elementary. why is this so scary ... this big exciting adventure ... ? if i decide to rent, ella and i will most likely head downtown ... and what a change that would be as well. crossroads ... fork in the road ... i can't seem to wrap my head around this next step. my decisions are no longer my own, but rather, the ultimate path for ella. ella, ella, ella ... thank God for her as my little sidekick :)